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Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Right now, I hate it here.

I am lonely, I am sick still, and I am relocated.
I don't know where anything is, there is nowhere to eat less than a 15 minute walk away (which doesn't seem like a big deal until you think about that fact that I am a white female and Nepali men just adore those and I am not fine with being out after dark, which starts around 5.
My new hotel has no internet (well, it has it, but it's only for the owner), no restaurant, and no people, and the owner is a jerk.
Today, I discovered that the drain in my bathroom doesn't work, so I flooded 2/3 of my room when I showered. I also stayed up most of the night writing my stupid paper and then, when moving it and all of my notes to a flash drive, missed, accidentally deleted all of it. Irretrievably. So then I promptly had meltdown, called my teacher, who can fit me in for coffee tomorrow... Also, I get to write it again, apparently, because they have to have something to grade.
I finally get the stupid (insert many many angry words) paper written, even though I already felt horrible last night, got about 3 hours of sleep because of it, and then delete the stupid thing and she has absolutely no sympathy.
And I'm lonely.
Right now, don't ask me how Nepal is. Because my answer will not be positive, enthusiastic, or any other happy adjective.
And Stephen doesn't come back for a week, which isn't terribly long, but right now feels like forever.
And I met a girl from the SIT Nepal program who treated me like a leper and didn't want anything to do with me.
And I have another paper to write in the next week as well.
I feel like giving up.
On the plus side, I just had good food.

3 Comments:

Anonymous Helen said...

Poor baby. I love you. <3

October 29, 2008 7:47 AM  
Blogger Stephen said...

Well dang, Schwester. I wish I could teleport you to London until Stephen got back. The weather's not nice here, but the drain's in my cousin's (Vetter's?) apartment work and the food here is also good. Last night for instance we had tomatuh soup an' grill' cheese.
Much love. You know I think aboutcha.

October 29, 2008 8:59 AM  
Blogger John said...

Hi Darby,
Even though you are half a world away, you are still in my thoughts and prayers. Sorry to hear about your paper. Did you check the recycle bin to see if it was there? I’ve been keeping up with your adventures through your blog and find it and the pictures very interesting. You are so grown up; I can hardly believe you are the same little three year old I met so many years ago. If you ever just need someone to vent to, you can always send an e-mail directly to me at john.lohmann@remingtoncollege.edu. Take care of yourself!

Love John

October 29, 2008 11:00 AM  

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